Hi my name is Rae and I am 28 years old. For the last 10 years I have been addicted to drugs and alcohol. I grew up in a dysfunctional home and at a young age my mom became heavily addicted to drugs and ended up choosing to use and live on the streets over her family. When i was 8 years old she left and I never saw her again. Life was hard for my sister and I. My dad took care of us the best he could, but i found myself lonely, isolated and very insecure. By the age of 16 I was smoking weed and drinking with friends and by the age of 18 I was on a destructive path of a crystal meth addiction. I lived in a fantasy world, I didn’t realize how deep into addiction I was until it was too late. I knew the life I was living was wrong and not what was intended for me but getting high just became a way of life. I had no way out.
I hid my addiction from everybody that loved me. I ended up getting off meth on my own to only become addicted to alcohol. I replaced one addiction with another and I lived with alcoholism for years until one day after a binge drinking weekend I decided I didn’t want to drink anymore, at least for awhile, so i stopped. Not knowing how sick I really was I thought this would be okay but instead of just a hangover I had a seizure and was rushed to the emergency room. After some tests the doctor came in and told me that I had developed a life threatening disease of the liver and needed to be on medication and needed to stop drinking alcohol because if I continued I would die. He said I should also stay clean so i could be put on the liver donor transplant list.
At age 26 I couldn’t believe what I was hearing, how could that be? I wasn’t that bad! At that moment I knew I needed help. But I still continued to drink.
On October 17, 2011 I checked myself into a 28 day rehab program. After that I went into a 6 month program that helped me stay clean. About 2 months later as I was just about to be put on the transplant list, I relapsed and my whole world came crashing down again. My drinking was worse than it had ever been and I didn’t want to stop.
In August of 2012 I called and did an intake over the phone to get into a faith based program my sister had found out about. I was accepted and living at the Walter Hoving Home 4 days later.
Since being at the home my life has drastically changed. God has opened my eyes and now I have freedom, the chains of addiction are broken and I am finally living. It is through Jesus Christ and this ministry that my life has been radically changed. Not only am I redeemed but Jesus has healed my body. I am off all medications and no longer qualify to be on the transplant list.
My life is a testimony of Gods grace and divine healing. I am a new creation in Christ and the pain I once masked with drugs and alcohol has been taken and uprooted out of me by the love of Jesus, my Savior. I am excited to be part of the staff team here and give women hope, and to be able to witness miracles happen everyday.
Philippians 3:13-14: Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.